{"id":339922,"date":"2024-12-06T21:29:12","date_gmt":"2024-12-06T17:29:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/epress.am\/?p=339922"},"modified":"2025-01-08T00:59:32","modified_gmt":"2025-01-07T20:59:32","slug":"dreams-after-karabakh","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/epress.am\/en\/2024\/12\/06\/dreams-after-karabakh.html","title":{"rendered":"Dreams after Karabakh"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: right;\">The Forth episode of the &#8220;After Karabakh&#8221; series.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\">Excerpts from conversations we had with Armineh, Silva,\u00a0Hasmik, Srbuhi, Marineh, Lida, Alvard, Madlene, Zara, Araqsya, Nara, and Gohar.<\/p>\n<p><iframe title=\"\u0535\u0580\u0561\u0566\u0576\u0565\u0580\u056b\u057d \u0574\u0565\u057b \u0565\u057d \u0564\u0565\u057c \u0542\u0561\u0580\u0561\u0562\u0561\u0572\u0578\u0582\u0574 \u0565\u0574\" width=\"618\" height=\"348\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/-s46N0yUMzM?start=82&#038;feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Some dreams are true, others aren\u2019t.\u00a0<span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Reading a dream as a sign that we\u2019ll return to Karabakh\u2014That\u2019s not true, for now.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In my dream, I\u2019m in our village. I\u2019m hanging bed sheets out in the sun. I\u2019m putting my clothes out in the sun. I wake up sweating. It was just a dream.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">If you see a coin, it\u2019s a bad sign. If you see a banknote, it\u2019s a good sign.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A wedding is not a good sign. If you see yourself in a coffin, it\u2019s a good thing.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Seeing yourself dead means your life will be longer. If you see a horse, you will achieve your ambitions. If you see a tree, your family will have a new birth.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I had a dream. Someone gave me a bag of money as compensation for the house I lost.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He said, \u201cIt\u2019s over. Take the bag and go buy yourself a new house in Karabakh.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">After 2020, for a long time, I had dreams of wandering around my house in Karabakh.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Opening all my drawers, including my dowry, which was left untouched.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I had this silly habit. I\u2019d stock up on things, on good things.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Since I moved to Armenia,I haven\u2019t had a dream about it. All my dreams take place in our village\u2014our school, our hospital, our collective, our house. Me in our garden, working.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I had a dream just a week ago. I\u2019m in America, sitting in a room, wearing a crown.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But I\u2019m surrounded by black snakes. Even now, I wonder\u2014if I\u2019m a queen, why are the Turks around me?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In my dream, I was arguing with Nikol. I was taking him to the mass grave, would strip him naked\u2014and so on. And no one would say, \u201cWhat are you doing?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A week ago, I had a dream. I\u2019m in Karabakh as a tourist. And I\u2019m with Turks, but I try to act so they don\u2019t realize I\u2019m Armenian. I&#8217;m trying to take photos of what\u2019s happening, of our house.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I left a bag with clothes behind. I often dream of going back to get it. But I never make it. I packed everything, but I didn\u2019t take it\u2014or the photographs.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In my dream, I\u2019m living in a hotel. Two families in one room. Beds lined up, green outside. Whatever she sees in a dream comes true. She dreamt of open gates, a woman riding a black horse. The woman was wearing a mask.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She thought about what the dream meant. She had that dream before the war. Then, when we came here, we understood why she had dreamed of a hotel. But the meaning of the woman in the dream? We still don\u2019t know.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I have dreams where I\u2019m dressed up. I used to be a fashionable woman. But here, I\u2019m given second-hand clothes to wear. It\u2019s a shame.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My yard used to be a real paradise, with flowers in full bloom. Now, when I drive to Dvin, I see flowers by the roadside. But the plants here are smaller. Back home, they were lush.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Twice in a dream,\u00a0 I was in my house. But it didn\u2019t feel like my house. It was as if I\u2019d been given an hour to grab things that were valuable to me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I had another dream. I\u2019m in my house, but I\u2019m surrounded by Azerbaijanis, by Turks. I<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0often have these dreams.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My psychologist asked me to tell him my latest dream during a session the other day.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And I realized, I just don\u2019t remember my dreams. I wake up and forget them.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Once, I had a dream about a yard. I was going to gather the harvest. But they wouldn\u2019t let me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I often dream about my child. Different kinds of dreams. Sometimes I dream about our village, where my father built a house. My children and my brother\u2019s children are all buried there. We were deeply connected to that village.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Even now, when I wake up, for a moment I think I\u2019m in Stepanakert. Then, after a few seconds, I realize I\u2019m somewhere else.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I dream of my flower garden in Karabakh. But there are few people around. I wonder, why doesn\u2019t everyone else come back? I\u2019m the only one who went. I see things scattered around.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I see acquaintances passing by, but they don\u2019t speak to me. I see strangers in my dreams, and it feels like we\u2019re still in Karabakh.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In my dream, I decided to run away from my father. I took the wrong road and ended up at our village house. I didn\u2019t notice there were Azerbaijanis around me. I passed by the living room, and they didn\u2019t notice me. I told our neighbor about this dream the next morning.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She asked, \u201cTell me, did the village house change at all?\u201d I said, \u201cIt was a dream. I don\u2019t know if anyone lives there now.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><em style=\"font-size: 10pt;\">The project is implemented within the frames of the Council of Europe project \u201cEnding Violence against Women and Promoting Gender Equality in Armenia\u201d.<\/em>\u00a0<span style=\"font-size: 10pt;\"><em>Opinions expressed by Epress.am do not necessarily reflect the policies and position of the Council of Europe.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<div class=\"Reactions\" dir=\"ltr\"><\/div>\n<!-- AddThis Advanced Settings generic via filter on the_content --><!-- AddThis Share Buttons generic via filter on the_content -->","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m in Karabakh as a tourist. 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